Imagine if you lost the use of a foot or an eye. Can you imagine that happening and you still going on enjoying and life? There would still be love and beauty and numerous other blessings to enjoy about life.
You must realize and understand that shoving food into your gullet is more of an addiction than a life necessity and you are killing yourself , much like a smoker with their cigarette addiction.
Understand that as you get older, your body does not need the amount of calories that you did as a growing youth and in fact consuming the same calories as you did when a youth is harmful.
Set your mind to the idea that you have lost the use of this hole (the hole in your head that you have been shoving unseemly amounts of caloric intake into) as you knew it. Count your blessings and enjoy life without this endless pit. You will see there Is more to life.
Let that hole go. Let it go and focus on and enjoy other things in life that can and will bring you and those around you longer lasting and more meaningful enjoyment.